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17 July 2004 @ 12:26 pm
A Portrait of the Fangirl (as an overexerted student *g*)  
During the last couple of weeks I found myself either drowning in the works of James Joyce or making long excursions into the history of London sewers. (The godfather of interior monologue being the most natural choice for my impending English literature exam , I have been a major Joyce fan even years before I saw him in his his Ewan McGregor incarnation *g*. My sudden interest in sewers, cesspits and the achievements of Victorian engineer Joseph Balzagette mostly derives from the need for yet another history term paper; however it's a quite fascinating subject. For anyone curious about the sanitory problems of a true metropolis, a good online summary can be found here.)

The increased academic activity seems to have had a rather peculiar effect on my brain. On the one hand it left me with a strangely insatiable hunger for words. Apart from study related books, I re-read one of my favourite historical novels (selenak will know which one *g*), Stephen King's Bag of Bones, which instantly made it into the Top Five of my favourite King books (yeah, call me heretical, but a) I love King and b)always find myself able to enjoy his newer works as much as the old) and am currently on page 57 of Iain Pears' An Instance of the Fingerpost. All these books have well over 700 pages.

On the downside of all this reading I have neglected online correspondence and LJ to a point which makes me feel like fandom's most uncommunicative, unfaithful daughter.

Will the prodigal be able to redeem herself? Well, I hope so.

Browsing my friendslist, I could not fail to notice enednoviel 's amazing portrait of a slightly older Harry Potter, kathyh's musings about the importance of opening paragraphs and selenak 's entry concerning the different interpretations of well-loved characters.

Also, there is this wonderful little poem cavendish had written for me shortly after Selena had kindly outed me as secret lover of the Wizarding World's most hated bureaucrat in her comment on my previous entry *g*

Lament for Lost Lovers

When 20 (roughly speaking)
you loved the
athletic type -
boxer sorts
dark voice,
big sword, immortal
but young
in appearance. you loved
his smile

Somewhat older, came
into your vision: a man
his face was hidden, more
the spiritual type, a sword
of light, and not of steel.
His chastity, his sad looks:
were they to be admired
or to be broken?
In fiction only.

And now, with almost thirty, a
bureaucrat it is, grey hair, great power,
wealth and: a dark secret:
Will the lonely man on his deserted planet
grieve? Will the age old Horseman (?)
come storming to your rescue? Would you
desire him to come?

Or can you love
the three of them
together, as observer or
creator? Imagine:
what the story would be like.
What time? And how would
it take place?

And if it came to contest, who would
- strictly fictionally spoken -
win? Sword or Money?
Mind or voice? Spiritual or
worldly greed? An alliance, maybe,
formed by two that would
remain, with you, and one
your sacrifice?
Will an apologize be made by those

At least ‘tis I who must
apologize for letting my
imagination go astray: in fiction that in
reality should stay. And stay there only.

The observations made in this poem are about as witty as they are true, I guess. cavendish has witnessed and endured my fannish passions since the mid nineties ;-)
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Marc Cohn, Saving The Best For Last
Cavendishcavendish on July 19th, 2004 12:35 pm (UTC)
Somehow I felt obliged to comment :-)) If only to put some things right ;-) (and since this reply is directed to bimo, as well as to selenak and kathyh, I think, Ill post it twice ;-)).

>I'm most impressed by the poem
*g*. But no, I think there is no need to;-) I was merely a fun piece planed to be a comment on bimo's last entry, but it took me too long to write, and so I was quite delighted when bimo offered to post it in an entry of its own :-).

>are about as witty as they are true

that would imply it is not very witty then :-)). No, "true" does not really apply, and this is not only because I forgot to mention Mandy Patinkin (hope I got the name right) as well as good old Wesley. No, let us say, the whole thing is based on my personal interpretation of certain observations including calendars, music CD's, videos, picture folders on certain PCs and alike ;-))

What inspired this poem, however, was true grieve: grieve for heroes and lovers so shamefully abandoned that I, being a poet (at least sometimes ;-)) ) did the only thing appropriate, and composed an elegy. (this is, please, what I want the poem to be read as. OK, “Ode”, will do to ;-)) )

>Now I'm jealous. Nobody has written an ode to my fannish obsessions.*g* (Selena)
>I've never inspired anyone to write poetry or even music (Kathy)

Kathy: Now how did you know that I have also written a songs to other people ;-)).(Very rarely, though :-)) )

But the tow of you: take this offer: For the next six weeks, I'll offer a "rent-a-poet" service and will write a poem on demand. Just choose any given topic (and, if you like, a special form) and give me one week for a poem that does not have to rhyme and two weeks for one that does :-))

Oh, and one PS.: selena: I am dreadfully sorry, I had so much on my mind that I could not get myself to write anything serious … The last weeks before the summer holidays are just hell in school, but more on this on my next lj entry J

Kathyh: Kathyh Englishkathyh on July 20th, 2004 01:46 am (UTC)
Re: poem
and this is not only because I forgot to mention Mandy Patinkin (hope I got the name right)

Looks right to me. And I don't know how you could forget him. The man sings, acts and is just all round wonderful *g*.

For the next six weeks, I'll offer a "rent-a-poet" service and will write a poem on demand. Just choose any given topic (and, if you like, a special form) and give me one week for a poem that does not have to rhyme and two weeks for one that does :-))

I can't resist this. I see selenak has already asked for a sonnet but I like sonnets so I'm going to ask for one too. Hm...subject. How about LJ itself? Yes, I'd like a sonnet to Live Journal please.
Cavendishcavendish on July 20th, 2004 05:50 am (UTC)
Re: poem
Oh, another sonnet ;-). (oh, not that I would complain ... iambic pentameter .... rhyme ... heroic couplet ... grumble ... difficult as hell to write ... am I William W. or who ... ;-))) )

So from now on a Sonnet on lj as such is on the making :-) this will be fun :-)) (so don't tell me anything of being an anti muse ;-))